Hello 11 weeks I am happy to make your acquaintance!! I have always wanted to meet you, as I have heard wonderful things about you. I must say you are even more fabulous than I was told. I will definitely recommend you to all my friends as no one should miss out on making it to your door.
Feeling wonderful! Egads, I am almost to 3 months of ED free living. I am stronger healthier and happier than i ever thought possible. It amazes me each and everyday. I started back up in therapy yesterday, I extended my support group, I feel like if I make many more giant leaps forward I might just leap off the end of the earth. You may ask, as my supports have been, why I am starting up in therapy if I am doing so well and have not been in therapy for over a year......and this is because I want to make sure I continue on my path to maintaining recovery. I have never been in this place of recovery before and I am not sure how to handle all the hurdles and I am not sure what hurdles will arise. Yes, I am doing very well.....but, i am mentally exhausted from fighting with ED and if I can learn to fight better I want to learn how. In this way I have someone who knows me, knows my ED and knows so much about ED that I can ask the wonderings that make me worry. I have pretty intense anxiety and now that I am in recovery, I stress about staying in recovery. Haha! I worry about everything ED and my therapist helps me rationalize and dissipate a level stress. I am really looking forward to the ED thoughts mellowing out, a little and a little more :) I miss a mind full of non-ED thoughts, all those life and living thoughts.
Today is a gorgeous day, sunny and breezing and everything autumn. i never feel as at home as I do during fall. It rejuvenates me and I think I could live in its colors and cool-warmness forever. We used to call it long sleeve and vest weather when those first chilly days would sneak in. It is strange how much wonder I feel each year at this time. Another thing to add to my list of reasons that life is amazing and I am a lucky, lucky girl. I will embrace this joy because tomorrow will be another day and I have no idea what that one will bring.
I love you 11 weeks, I can't wait to meet all your friends! Tell 12 weeks I will see her soon!
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